MIND and SOUL
It's all about words or anything I see in life.
That filling my soul and written on my mind.
Just to feel what I feel.
It's all about describing MY MIND and MY SOUL
Life is hard. But It's Harder If You're Stupid!!

Ayu Wening

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Friday, May 19, 2006 

Me and My Friends, on the Saturday Night

Actually, I prepared this topic to be my speech on Wednesday Meeting in my office. But, I think it’s also proper to be posted here.

Last weekend, I met my friends. We’re friends since we were in college. We now work! One for Telkom Indonesia, One for Siemens, One for Bank Danamon. And one is still looking for job, now she’s trying to be an employee of Bank Indonesia *wish u all the best Sis!*. And I, work for STTTelkom.

The gathering began with the ‘say hi!’.
Then continued with the conversation about our job! Finally, we talked about salary. I already know, my friend who works for Telkom is paid about X times from my salary. And the siemens’ employee said that 3 years from now, she will be paid not less than X millions! What a great amount.. Ooh, I hated the situation!! I hated ur jobs and the fantastic payment.. *really poor me*! Thank God they understood when I said indirectly ‘I dont wanna talk about it, please!’

The gathering continued with the dinner.
While waiting for the foods, we talked again. My friend in Bank Danamon told us about her work environment. She had been many times beaten and back-stabbed by her partners *I mean, FAKE partners*. Even the Boss did some tricks to let her down. Others said that it also happened to them. Indirectly they said: ‘Sometimes we need to deal with the situation. Every thing is fair in LOVE and WAR. Well, this is a war! EVERYDAY IS A WAR! U have to kill them, coz u if don’t.. they’ll kill u!!’.. Waaa,, sounds not good! Then I said, ‘I don’t find such kind of things!’, and they answered ‘U are different. Academic environment is different, right?’. I began to realize, how lucky I am. Of being here, of working her. Of having great and supportive colleagues.

The conversation continued,
My friends who work in Jakarta told me that they always go to the office at 7 AM and come back home at 8 PM. Many times they must work overtime. Well, it’s the another disaster.. they must spend almost all the day working. What about if u already had family? Husband? Or babies? TRAGIC!! I can’t live with these way of life.. I cant! I wanna see my babies grow up. I wanna tell story every night before they sleep. Again, I realized how lucky I am, working in not too demanding institution. Just do teaching, then I’m free.. I still can have time to do blogging ^-^ I can wear jeans and sandal jepit! I don’t need to be ‘always pretty’. I’m free to speak about anything. I’m free to express what’s on my mind! My boss is my best friend.. we often talk about our personal life. Oohh what a lovely job and loveable friends! I’m happy here.. even the payment doesn’t satisfy me, it doesn’t really matter! Well I don’t work for money.. Anyway, I’m not working here, I’m having fun! So much fun!

And the most important things..
I always love being a student.. yeah I know, weird hobby ;-) and being a lecturer gives me a proper and PERFECT reason for me to get higher and higher degree ^o^.

To be a lecturer always be my dream since I was a kid. And now, the dream came true.. Alhamdulillah! So the question is, how long I’ll be a lecturer for STTTelkom? Well, I haven’t decided. I love working here but I don’t think it will be forever. One day, I’ll have to compromise with the situation. I’ll have a family : husband & children. If my husband works in other town.. then I’ll set my priority: I have to move! I hope I can be here longer, but I also pray for ‘no-longer single’ status heuheuheu =p


One thing I learned:
“Sometimes money can bring us happiness!
But in many times, happiness cant be bought only with money!”


Saturday, May 06, 2006 

Aku Takut Menikah!! –- lessons about marriage

Weeks ago,,,
Di sebuah tempat makan di Bandung. Seorang lelaki setengah baya berjalan mendekat ke arah sebuah meja. Tiba-tiba.. *plaaaaakkk* sebuah jaket terlempar keras ke arahnya. Tampaknya ada seorang wanita *sekitar 30an* yang marah besar! Wanita itu kemudian memaki-maki suaminya sendiri. Didengarkan anak mereka *sekitar 8 tahun*, ibu itu menjerit, “Liat bapakmu,,, nikah lagi!! Biar semua orang tau!!”

Astaghfirullah.. gw yang saat itu ada di sana *sama babe* langsung memutuskan untuk pergi saja *mending ga denger deh,, urusan rumah tangga orang*. Pulang dari situ, gw langsung diskusi sama babe: KOK BISA YAH ORANG MEMBAGI HATI? Punya terlalu banyak stok CINTA apa?


Days ago,,,
Seorang kenalan bercerita, “Dia kan dah punya istri,, masa masih nyanjung2 cewe lain sih! Dia ga nghargain perasaan gw sebagai istri!!”

Di lain hari,,,
si bos cerita: “Aku punya temen yang cerai setelah 8 tahun menikah. Padahal masalahnya simple!”

Then I started questioning : SEBURUK ITUKAH PERNIKAHAN??

Begitulah, beberapa hari kemarin *mungkin* gw kena syndrome,, biar rada kerenan dan lebih ilmiah, lets give it name: PRE-MARRIAGE SYNDROME kew!! Banyak banget kisah2 tragis yang gw denger tentang pernikahan. Tapi sebagian besar orang yang gw ajak ngomong ngasih masukan positif.


Pak Nanang said:
*set nyunda mode on * Nikah mah enaakk pisan lagi Yu!!

Mr DDD said:
Ayu,, kenapa harus takut?? Jangan kuatir lah,, di bikin gampang aja,, then u'll be happy!!

Mommy said:
aduh De', kalo ngomongin ga enaknya terus.. nikah emang ga enak,,, tapi ga nikah lebih ga enak!!

Babe said:
hehehe,, lu sih kebanyakan nonton inpoteinmen. Kurangin yah nonton begituan=P

Yudha Smurf said:
nikah bukan lomba! ga usah buru2 apalagi karena kepikiran umur..

Rani said:
istikharah,, istikharah,,

I said: okeh! Optimis.. optimis.. Berdoa.. berdoa.. Ikhtiar.. ikhtiar.. Tawakal.. tawakal..

Hey, It works. At least,, Now Im not too sceptic like I was.

Mengutip alm. Pramudya Ananta Toer:
"Kita semua harus menerima kenyataan, tapi menerima kenyataan saja adalah pekerjaan manusia yang tak mampu lagi berkembang, karena manusia juga bisa membikin kenyataan-kenyataan baru. Kalau tak ada orang mau membikin kenyataan-kenyataan baru, maka kemajuan sebagai kata dan makna sepatutnya dihapuskan dari kamus umat manusia."
(Rumah Kaca, hal 325)

Ya ALLAH,,
Sekiranya dia lah imam yang KAU pilihkan untuk membimbingku..
Izinkan aku mencintainya seumur hidupku..
Sekiranya KAU ridhoi rasa ini
Bimbinglah kami menuju cinta-MU
Amiin!!