MIND and SOUL
It's all about words or anything I see in life.
That filling my soul and written on my mind.
Just to feel what I feel.
It's all about describing MY MIND and MY SOUL
Life is hard. But It's Harder If You're Stupid!!

Ayu Wening

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Wednesday, March 29, 2006 

[Lyric] YOU by Basil Valdez

You give me hope,
The strength, the will to keep on;
No one else can make me feel this way
And only you
Can bring out all the best I can do;
I believe you turn the tide
And make me feel real good inside.

You pushed me up
When I'm about to give up;
You're on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can't help but show
You'll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts

CHORUS:
It's your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I'm with you through all the way.
'Cause it's you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev'rything, you see,
When I know I've got you with me

You pushed me up
When I'm about to give up
You're on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can't help but show
You'll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts

CHORUS:
It's your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I'm with you through all the way.

'Cause it's you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev'rything, you see,
When I know I've got you with me. 2x

heuheu.. lagu lama tapi sumpah daleeemmm bangett!!


Thursday, March 23, 2006 

Kenangan students

ehem,, tiba2 aja pagi ini gw inget. Dah lama banget gw ga online di sitenya students. Padahal,,, banyak banget kenangan gw di situ!! Salah satunya,, petikan kata2 dari lagu ini…

morrisey - the more u ignore me, the closer I get

The more you ignore me
The closer I get
You're wasting your time
The more you ignore me
The closer I get
You're wasting your time

I will be
In the bar
With my head
On the bar
I am now
A central part
Of your mind's landscape
Whether you care
Or do not
Yeah, I've made up your mind

The more you ignore me
The closer I get
You're wasting your time
The more you ignore me
The closer I get
You're wasting your time

Beware !
I bear more grudges
Than lonely high court judges
When you sleep
I will creep
Into your thoughts
Like a bad debt
That you can't pay
Take the easy way
And give in

Yeah, and let me in
Oh, let me in
Oh let me ...
Oh, let me in
IT'S WAR
IT'S WAR
IT'S WAR
IT'S WAR
IT'S WAR
WAR
WAR
WAR
WAR
Oh, let me in
Ah, the closer I get
Ah, you're asking for it
Ah, the closer I get
Ooh, the closer I ...


Hihihihi lucu aja kalo inget cerita pas dulu! Gw peraaaanggg teruss sama seseorang itu. Dan,,, ternyata gw kalah heuheuheu!! Hunneh,,, remember that moments?!


Monday, March 20, 2006 

favorite avatar


this is my favorite avatar.. isn't it gorgeous and cute?!


Saturday, March 18, 2006 

A month after

A month ago,, u went away.. to catch ur dreams,, a big step forward to ur brighter future and ours I hope,, Amin!! Since the day,, I am all alone here. I know,, Im not truly alone coz u’re always there whenever I need,, and u’re always here.. right on my heart!

Then life’s getting harder,, and harder. It’s like I’m losing my soul,, I can’t think bout anything but u!! Then finally I realize,, I love u more than I ever thought. Babe,, I miss u!

I miss u every night and everyday. And I hate being alone like this. But I’m so Thank anyway! I’m already happy,, with what we’ve had,,, what we’ve been through,,, and how strong the love we feel to each other.

Now,, a month after,,, I feel much better,,, much stronger,,, and much happier also!! Now I know,, it’s just the obstacles we must pass,, and WE WILL.. Amin!!!


Thursday, March 16, 2006 

[Lyric] I Miss You by Incubus

To see you when I wake up,
is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same, as I do,
is a Three-fold utopian dream

You do something to me
That I can't explain
So would I be out of line, If I said
I miss you

I see your picture,
I smell your skin on,
the empty pillow next to mine

You have only been gone ten days,
but already I am wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon

But I need you to know, that I care
And I miss you


Thursday, March 09, 2006 

miss u more than ever

I never asked to be in love with u
I never thought it would be this strong and deep
but it does happen to me!!
And now, I do missing u so
can't imagine I should wait weeks longer..

Miss U more than ever


Wednesday, March 08, 2006 

the untitled feeling

this loneliness is killing me
bring me so much pain that u're not here
but I LOVE U, that's the matter
and love will wait,
till the day I'm a body without soul


Wednesday, March 01, 2006 

why did I often get trouble with Mrs. PhD ??

yeah!
that's a really funny FACT. At least twice in my life time I got trouble with woman lecturer, and both of them had PhD degree! And the problem was always the same : (unfair-in my opinion) SCORING!! Here's the complete story *I hope it aint the 'emotional' version*

First one
A year ago. We were given a task to write down a naration about our dream jobs, we choose a proffesion and give the reasons why. So I wrote a naration, how I love engineering, what subjects I like, and which proffesion I choose. The funny thing is, someone did the task based on mine. But guess.. I got B and that someone got A?! Feel that it was so unfair I called the Mrs. PhD, and bad things happened.. She SCREAMED right on my ear, said something so.. uhh.. painfull!! Yes.. it was, so.. so.. *I'm hurt again remembering that moment*. Then I met her at her desk to 'defend' my work, I just wanted to know 'why' I got only B grade. U know why? She didn't have any responsible or logic or acceptable reason. So I concluded, she just didn't want to change the score, she would not let other see her as 'lecturer that had missed scoring task'. Finally she said "U know? the word 'DAN' (in Indonesia) should not be placed in front of sentence. Thats why u only got that score!!". Ohh,, are u kidding me??

Second, and I hope the last
I made my java work. By my own *and of course with help from some friends to TEACH*!! I made almost perfect,, with complete modelling,, error handling,, powerfull dbms,, and so on. But why I got the lowest score?? How stupid *sorry.. kidding*
The thing is, it's not making sense.. others didn't make any modelling *even class diagram*. How can we code in java which is fully OBJECT ORIENTED without making the class diagram before?? How can they do the work without even understand the OBJECT CONCEPT?? The world must be CRAZY if it happened. But it did happen.. so,, can u all say that her *she refers to the second Mrs. PhD* SCORING is FAIR?!! Dude,,, I let u judge!!

sorry.. I think that's the RUDE version.. I'm so sorry,, if I hurt someone's feeling. So sorry, I dont mean to,,,,